finally kamilla and chelsea left my home today. i'm just back to my usual days, but missing something. i'm so happy about that they liked japan, and i also really appreciate that they visited me from america! i hope we can meet again soon!! (kamilla said shes coming back in 3 month? i dont think thats possible, but she said "give me 6 month slave... and i'll be back!")

last night, when i was trying to update my web journal, chelsea asked me if i'm just writing about whats happening or i'm writing journal with my opinion or how i felt about something. usually when i write journal i just put whatever happened in that day and thats it, i know its not really interesting to read, but i just write my journal to remember that moment later, because i forget everything. but i'm thinking, probably i should start writing about how i feel about something!? but at the same time i'm afraid of facing myself really deeply because i know i'm super negative. so i'm just worried if i'm not ganna stop thinking about something negatively, and eventually keeping this journal makes me unhealthy or something...

i also went to tower record before i came back home, and blur released the new album!!! i like oasis more than blur, but its really cool. i wanted to get couple of CDs in there but i didn't have cash so i gave up.. mm! next time!

i was talking on the phone with dansen just before, his voice was like doraemon.... his voice was really thick because he was getting cold, and it was just like doraemon... japanese cartoon caracter, i think its a hi-tech cat robot from 22nd century. i was thinking dansen is really smart, and what can i do to be smart also. since just before, i just thought maybe his smart because he knows about lots of things.. but now i think because he knows so many stuff and see them from a different aspect from others also... like his brain is maybe already unique, so when he see or hear about something, he thinks about them differently using his tonz of information. also maybe his just doing anything by his burning curiousity, so as long as i hope like " i wanna be smart like that!", i can never become such a person... because it seems like most of cool people dont even care if they are cool or something. i think he is gonna be a great teacher in japan!! i wish if i could have taken his english classes when i was a junior high school student here... maybe my english could become better than now! anyway, i hope his cold gonna get well.

i'm gonna go to bed! i'm really tired and i'll work after noon tomorrow so i dont have to set the alarm!! yay!