its been ages!!!


i finally decided to update my diary cus today dansen got an email from his long time friend cody who used to live in japan.... he and his wife michelle once mentioned that they read my blog, and then today i was like "ohh they dont know what the hell i am doing right now huh!" so i decided to write something.

okay....
i transferred to a university in tokyo, and i came back to a school as a sophmore student last spring. im currently working at a clothing company in shibuya during day time, and going to school in night time. also im sort of helping my friend's company and i went to australia with 10 middle school students(all boys!). i really like what i am doing right now, but its just all so tiring. i have to write lots of papers and read a lot, and at the same time i have to work with fashionista and teachers. sometimes i wonder where i belong to.

i used to like to fill out my schedule with lots of tiny little plans and notes to myself, but not really anymore. after i came back from the states in summer 2005, for half year i was just preparing for the transfer entrance exam, working as a part-time only 3 days a week, so i had tonz of free time. i didnt really hang out with my friends cus i had to study and also didnt have much money, so i was always thinking about some useless things, or talking to myself (kinda creepy tho!) and somehow i started to like that. eventually i learned how to spend my free time i think!

anyway so what i really wanna have right now is just time to do nothing! i dont care how much money i get paid, well i need money to survive, but i wanna have my own private time more to be able to feel the moment "this is life." augh!